The World Can Be A Wonderful Place!!!

I surprise even myself. I woke up today feeling extremely happy and satisfied. (Satisfied?? Dont kw about wat). But anyway, am happily brushing my teeth, had a warm and soothing bath, had a good breakfast, came to work with a smile on my face. I was happily greeting everyone who walked in after me. Nothing seemed to faze my mood! Most of my colleagues walked in, lugging their unwilling bodies throught the door, plastering either a daze look on their face or just a blank, black face. No amount of happy 'Good Mornings' could force a smile on their face. So...wat the heck! That's not going to bring me down. I'm HAPPY..!! H.A.P.P.Y!!!!!

The next time I looked at my watch, it was already 11am. 2 more hours to lunch time. Yippee! Was happy, said lots of Good Mornings to my msn mates. Received email from dear on the photos he took. I had a satisfactory lunch. Out of whim and of course, craving. I bought 2 sticks of ice-cream, biscuits, ovalteenies (i love dat stuff!) and of course, all girls favourite, chocolate back. Hee! I unwrapped both my ice-cream sticks, hold one in each hand and simultanously eat both at the same time!! HAHA! My colleagues thought I was mad! Nope, not mad, just HAPPY!

By 3pm, I had polished off 1 pack of ovalteenies (did i tell you how heavenly that tiny teeny thing taste?), 1 pack biscuits, some chocolates...etc. Boy am i satisfied! My nice colleague even gave me a 9-tier nonya kueh to eat. (I accepted but was too polite to tell her that I hate any kueh with coconut milk in it!) So now, this multi-layed, multi coloured nonya kueh is still sitting happily on my desk waiting for someone to devour it! Not me, I'm fairly certain of it! Maybe will be nice and offer to my left-over colleagues (Colleagues still left over in office after office hrs) this delicacy and they should appreciate me for it. ( Well, its just a matter of jie hua xian fo!)

Time flies, the next time again I looked at my watch, its 6pm already! Most of my colleagues have already gotten ready to fly out of the door. This time round, all of them had smiles on their faces and were happily saying sayonara to everybody elses. Irony, can't they just walk in happy this morning as well??!! Just human nature lah! I oso like that what, its just that I'm a bit on the loony side today!

So, its now 7.26pm, I'm still in the office. Half writing my blog(I really miss my blog during the weekends boy!), half working! Hard-working right? Sometimes its nice to work late. Now's the time when no one's around to bug you, to check if you're really working or into msn from behind your back. Now I can blog and msn till it explode, no one would care! HEE! Now's my TIME!!

I truly hope that every single day I can be as happy and as satisfied as today. Sometimes we sit down and think about it. The world CAN be a wonderful place. Its just how we want to make out of it! I certainly hope that this particular loony feeling of mine last. Its good to feel wonderful once in a while, it'll be better if we could feel it all the time!

CHEERS to everyone out there today! Its been a WONDERFUL day!!

Break ups................

Why must there be love, then come the great tragedy....break ups??!
Is there no love that could withstand the test of time and adversity??!
Then why must we fall in love then?
Different reasons, different needs?

I like to fall in love. Its a wonderful FEELING to be loved in return.
I love to be pampered, to know that there's someone in the world who worries about me, who cares whether i eat, sleep and basically anything. Sometimes I worry him a bit just to feel concern coming from him. Sicko? Not in my sense, its great to know that I have someone who truly belongs to me and me him!

I just want to SEE concern, to SEE love coming from him. I always feel that I do not have to go to such lengths just to get that. Or do I? Why can't couples show more affection to each other? Can't love and concern be shown unconditionally? Why must it always be asked? Be told? Why do caucasians have no whims about showing affection but Asians almost buking at having to hug and kiss their partners in public? A show of affection cost nothing but earns so much out of a relationship.
This was how I thought! Til one day, he called it quits.............................................. Told me to marry a caucasian for all it matters. Says I'll never be able to find an asian guy to fulfill my requirements.
(definitely in the midst of all these, there're other contributing factors to the break-up)

.......To Charles- I had loved you. Never meant to hurt you. Was too insecure to admit that to you. Thought your love was so strong, so strong that it'll shelter me from harm, from bad memories. But apparently, its not. I didnt see it coming, you cheated my feelings for so long.......how could you?? Can you believe I still love you aft all that had happened? We built our home, built our love story, how could you just let it come tumbling down???........................how could you still hurt me even aft we're apart?..............................how could you.......

......Dear - You're a new start in my life. I've gone thru a major break-up just recently. But I guess i've learned. I will bury all unhappiness and bad memories and start afresh again! Will give you the trust you deserve to have. Will continue to give the love and concern I'm capable of giving. But this time round, I'll not expect too much back. But pls, bury your past and bad memories too! I'm not one of your exs. I'm a different gal. Trust me! Believe in my love, I'm very capable of loving someone wholeheartedly and unconditionally. Dear, pls dont hurt me this time round. I dont think I'm able to survive another heart break...................!

p.s: I miss you! Take care of yourself dear!

Something beautiful to share

5 mins ago i read this blog that so touches my heart. I wanna share it with all of you!

Especially to all my dearest friends:

To My mum, dear,

Courage to face the day and the faith to make it through the night
Strength to fight this battle and power to heal this body
Love to engulf you and tears to be shed with you
Shoulders to comfort you and admiration to remind you of your own inner strength; your own power
A hope of tomorrow and an appreciation of today
But most importantly I send you knowledge...the knowledge that you are not alone on this frightening path.
As long as you walk it so shall we. We, your kindred spirits, are with you!

Another Tuesday In The Office

Work, work , work work.........Actually the work is ok. Its the idiotic creeps and bitches that I work with thats the main irritating factor. My superior calls me in, on the pretentious note of sharing the company's prob with me (a female), tries her very best to gouge out, or rather, force me in a very nice way to tell her the going-ons in the company. HELLO! Who did she think I am man? Think I'll be like some snake who tell on others? Looking at her 'red', tears threatening to flow eyes, i almost laughed into her face. I can act better than that! Find the juiciest gossips yourself man! I'm new, but not STUPID!
Simply cant stand that Kim. Pretentious, always calling out and talking in that 'sweet', 'melodious' and act 'cute' voice of hers. Tah Boleh Tahan!! Think that all the guys are going to fall head over heels with her!! Maybe.....most guys are too dumb to look beyond a pretty face! (Dont contradict me now lah. I said most, i never say ALL!) My respect for guys go a long way. Its funny I can still have respect for them after my life long tryst and struggle with ass-holes in my life!
So shag out already, yet gotto wait. SIGH!

Well, tomorrow's a better day..., should be right?......hope so lah..........